Gone for Good

It's only when you've lost something that you realize how much you truly valued that thing...
Or in this case a person, someone that should never have been thrown away,
Discarded.
Ignored.
Left.
I said I loved you, but didn't know if I meant it.
Now, I know, all too well, how much I really cared.
I sit here, with this empty feeling inside of me.
I think of you, and a pit forms in the depths of my stomach.
Hurting.
Heart Ache.
Sadness.
The tears begin to fall freely after a while,
Splattering down on the red shirt I wear, onto my jeans, my hands.
But I quickly wipe my face and put on a smile.
Sing the song on the radio, just so no one knows the pain.
Classes, work... work, classes, it all just starts to blend together.
My world continues to spin.
Out of control.
Out of time.
Without me.
But I was the one who screwed up.
I was the one who pushed you away.
I was the one who didn't know what I had...
Until it was gone,
Until I couldn't get it back.
Until I couldn't get you back.